Betraying my principles.
Betraying myself.
Going backwards.
Trying and failing.
Forgetting who I am.
Other people’s standards.
My standards.
Conditional love.
Buying into lies.
Being stuck.
Voicing this.
Not voicing this.
Being uncomfortable.
Staying uncomfortable.
alive. awake. uncomfortable. 
I do, in fact, feel you. Thanks for putting it into words.
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