Checking in!

I know my blog has been quiet, but I’m still alive and kicking!

It’s actually mostly a good thing, as I’ve felt well enough to have a full and great summer with my kids. I’m down to one, much milder version of chemotherapy, and almost all of my symptoms (minus a few lingering and/or mystery ones that may or may not be related) are getting smaller in the rear view mirror.

Of course, because life pauses for no one (or maybe just a privileged few), just as I began to get my energy and strength back, so also began a full summer with 4 busy, loud, creative, often arguing kids. It’s been good. But also a lot.

And as the school year kickoff looms close, I find myself thinking about writing again, and finding some ways to look toward the future.

Also good stuff. But uncomfortable stuff.

Can I get healthier? Can I prevent future disease? Can I accept my body and all it has been through? Can I make peace with the tumultuous last year of my life? Do I actually need to? Can I get licensed again? Can I work competently in my field again? How do I try to get there? Am I capable? Wait, have I learned nothing about flow and surrender? Do I have control issues?

It’s a lot.

But life waits for no one. And I’m trying to remember to be thankful that I *get* these chances and choices, as not everyone does.

But that doesn’t make it, like, easy.

Discomfort can point to something being wrong, but it can also point to the process of healing.

I’ll be trying to “get in touch” with myself. Writing will undoubtedly help me do that, so in turn, I’ll also be touch with you all.