Maybe it's that I'm coming off a nasty feverish virus that has made sleeping hard, or that I haven't been to the gym all week, or just that a lot has been anxiously bubbling beneath the surface... But some days, you wake up feeling like an absolute mess who can't handle ANYTHING. Ta da! ...… Continue reading Being the Me I Need Today
Tag: trauma
Checking in!
I know my blog has been quiet, but I'm still alive and kicking! It's actually mostly a good thing, as I've felt well enough to have a full and great summer with my kids. I'm down to one, much milder version of chemotherapy, and almost all of my symptoms (minus a few lingering and/or mystery… Continue reading Checking in!
Through unlined eyes…
Some time over the course of this summer, my daily guilty pleasure eye-liner habit slipped into an every other day thing. And then a few-times-a-week thing. Until summer break drew to a close, and over a week went by with nary an eyeliner application.Was it having the kids home, and less time for myself? Nah.… Continue reading Through unlined eyes…
Attachment, abandonment, and being a pastor’s spouse in the time of Covid
There's a lot swimming around in my brain right now, and for some reason it kind of came to a head last night as I tried to drift off to sleep. Isn't that always the way? For those of you who don't know me personally, I'm married to a Lutheran (ELCA) pastor. He serves a… Continue reading Attachment, abandonment, and being a pastor’s spouse in the time of Covid
We should be uncomfortable with this
I am feeling my blog title acutely, in the wake of ANOTHER mass school shooting. Alive: Well, in a country with a gun obsession that claims to be more about "my rights!" than worshiping guns, I made it another day in the USA without being gunned down in a supermarket, church, school, public park, or… Continue reading We should be uncomfortable with this
From the comfort of our own couch…
We've hit that (perhaps inevitable?) milestone in this pandemic. Or maybe it's a milestone in our marriage? I mean, we entered the exhausted end-of-day post-kid-bedtime-mindlessly-watch-TV-and-chill mode several kids ago (not to be confused with "Netflix and Chill"; we're too old for that nonsense). 😆 But we are suddenly finding ourselves watching some of Netflix's recent… Continue reading From the comfort of our own couch…
Reel life sobriety
Have you succumbed to clicking on those "reels" that Facebook is now littered with? I totally have. And the more I let curiosity get the best of me, the more FB seems to offer me. There are dad jokes, dance moves, moments of mom life, make up tutorials, cute kids being cute, lavish lifestyle flexes...… Continue reading Reel life sobriety
Is the answer to simply “leave Britney alone”?
Is Britney being mistreated and exploited?Probably, yes.Does she need help to manage her life and issues?Probably, yes. I listened to her whole statement. I hear her frustration, anger, overwhelm, and relief in finally speaking honestly and in being heard. I hear her state she's depressed, traumatized, unable to sleep, cries constantly, and can't trust anyone.… Continue reading Is the answer to simply “leave Britney alone”?
Addictive Comfort v. Addictive Discomfort
And unexpectedly, mid-morning, the news came through - for me, via a text from my brother on our ongoing family chat - that Pennsylvania officially was called for Biden, and in turn, the AP called the presidential race for Joe Biden and vice president Kamala Harris. There was shouting and cheers, there were joyful relieved… Continue reading Addictive Comfort v. Addictive Discomfort
It’s the post I don’t want to write.
It's the space I don't want to inhabit. But four years ago, I didn't really even truly consider that it was possible for a smart, talented woman like Hillary Clinton to lose the presidential election against a blustering, lying reality star and oaf like DJT. That was naive. I was naive. I thought... yeah, she's… Continue reading It’s the post I don’t want to write.
alive. awake. uncomfortable. 