Maybe it's that I'm coming off a nasty feverish virus that has made sleeping hard, or that I haven't been to the gym all week, or just that a lot has been anxiously bubbling beneath the surface... But some days, you wake up feeling like an absolute mess who can't handle ANYTHING. Ta da! ...… Continue reading Being the Me I Need Today
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Checking in!
I know my blog has been quiet, but I'm still alive and kicking! It's actually mostly a good thing, as I've felt well enough to have a full and great summer with my kids. I'm down to one, much milder version of chemotherapy, and almost all of my symptoms (minus a few lingering and/or mystery… Continue reading Checking in!
The Discomfort Zone
My last post, in November of (crazy as can be) 2023, alluded to changes and shifts outside of my cancer diagnosis, surgery, and treatment. And oh mama... the changes have been many. In fact, that's been a huge part of why there have been no posts since then! When you're in survival mode - at… Continue reading The Discomfort Zone
Patience, patient
This won't be an epic, long post as my last few have been. Believe me, there's still plenty to ponder and process, but with my bilateral mastectomy and reconstruction complete, I am breathing a big sigh of relief and looking ahead. But first... there's that pesky healing process. I have had no illusions this would… Continue reading Patience, patient
Saying Goodbye to “the Girls”
While I don't intend for my blog, Alive-Awake-Uncomfortable, to become a Cancer Blog (TM), much of what makes me uncomfortable lately is confronting aspects my diagnosis of Invasive Ductal Carcinoma, so ... here we are once again! It may not surprise you to hear, that as a busy of mom of 4, I sometimes rush… Continue reading Saying Goodbye to “the Girls”
Let’s Talk About Death, Baby… wait, should we? Shhh!
I just came in from mowing my lawn, and pulling up a mess of matted, withered, crunchy and dry flower stalks in the beds. It's almost fall, and though it hasn't turned cold and STAYED cold yet, everything is in the process of turning crunchy and withered. I could have let those splayed out viny… Continue reading Let’s Talk About Death, Baby… wait, should we? Shhh!
The Myth of Ready
As a young girl scout in the mid-1980s, our motto was drilled into us: "Be Prepared." On my honor, I will try... That mindset has always been an ideal for me, and has - in my better moments - shaped me to always have a snack or extra tampon in my purse, a stick of… Continue reading The Myth of Ready
And So It Flows…
Hmm. The Universe apparently knew something when it dropped the notion of "flow" into my life for 2022. Here we are, 11 days in to the new year, and instead of boarding a plane to go to Florida tonight, we're a household in quarantine after one of the kids became symptomatic and tested positive for… Continue reading And So It Flows…
Exercising empathy
It's inherently uncomfortable, in many situations. To stretch yourself to consider what must truly be going on in someone's mind... their reasoning... their choices... is not an exercise many of us want to engage in. When we judge, or write someone off as an idiot, we firmly shut a door. It keeps the world black… Continue reading Exercising empathy
Words.. talking.. hard…
One of the most uncomfortable things for me is a necessary, but hard, conversation. Emotions might run high, clarity might be difficult, there's no guarantee it will "fix" things, and at the close, we still might be misunderstood. I appreciate this wisdom and thought it was worth sharing!
alive. awake. uncomfortable. 