Maybe it's that I'm coming off a nasty feverish virus that has made sleeping hard, or that I haven't been to the gym all week, or just that a lot has been anxiously bubbling beneath the surface... But some days, you wake up feeling like an absolute mess who can't handle ANYTHING. Ta da! ...… Continue reading Being the Me I Need Today
Tag: adulting
Checking in!
I know my blog has been quiet, but I'm still alive and kicking! It's actually mostly a good thing, as I've felt well enough to have a full and great summer with my kids. I'm down to one, much milder version of chemotherapy, and almost all of my symptoms (minus a few lingering and/or mystery… Continue reading Checking in!
Through unlined eyes…
Some time over the course of this summer, my daily guilty pleasure eye-liner habit slipped into an every other day thing. And then a few-times-a-week thing. Until summer break drew to a close, and over a week went by with nary an eyeliner application.Was it having the kids home, and less time for myself? Nah.… Continue reading Through unlined eyes…
The Myth of Ready
As a young girl scout in the mid-1980s, our motto was drilled into us: "Be Prepared." On my honor, I will try... That mindset has always been an ideal for me, and has - in my better moments - shaped me to always have a snack or extra tampon in my purse, a stick of… Continue reading The Myth of Ready
Be afraid… be very afraid
My 5th grader is an absolute movie buff. He has borrowed library DVDs since he was a tot in the kiddie section, streamed since he knew how to use a remote, and campaigned feverishly for what we'd rent since it became our Friday night tradition. His holiday and birthday wishlists contain more movies than toys.… Continue reading Be afraid… be very afraid
Fears of
Betraying my principles. Betraying myself. Going backwards. Trying and failing. Forgetting who I am. Other people's standards. My standards. Conditional love. Buying into lies. Being stuck. Voicing this. Not voicing this. Being uncomfortable. Staying uncomfortable. Ya feel me?
Is the answer to simply “leave Britney alone”?
Is Britney being mistreated and exploited?Probably, yes.Does she need help to manage her life and issues?Probably, yes. I listened to her whole statement. I hear her frustration, anger, overwhelm, and relief in finally speaking honestly and in being heard. I hear her state she's depressed, traumatized, unable to sleep, cries constantly, and can't trust anyone.… Continue reading Is the answer to simply “leave Britney alone”?
Say YES to the Mess!
Over quarantine and this last year+ of "pandemicness", our normally messy house has had the chance to become RIDICULOUSLY entrenched in mess. Clutter that would normally get cleared after a few days has evolved into seemingly semi-permanent structures and piles. (Only "semi" because it occasionally falls over if it gets high enough.) A messy side-of-my… Continue reading Say YES to the Mess!
Getting with the ‘Gram
Have you ever seen those posts exposing the pains behind the perfect Insta pictures? The lengths someone will go to in order to curate the perfect image/aesthetic to post can truly be incredible, if not amusing to someone like me who basically only dabbles in filtering her pictures of everyday life. But people - celebrities… Continue reading Getting with the ‘Gram
Middle class illusions (or dreams of “being comfortable”)
I will preface this post by stating that, if my writing style doesn't totally give it away instantly, I do not claim to be an economist. I will also state that I'm working from the collective recognition and assumption that the middle class is shrinking and/or disappearing; that is, the rich are getting richer and… Continue reading Middle class illusions (or dreams of “being comfortable”)
alive. awake. uncomfortable. 